Thursday, May 5, 2011

Funk

This is gonna be quick and dirty. The to do list is looming larger than my abilities and I've only given myself ten minutes at the computer, but I want to post about an issue.

I've been in a funk lately. I've been fairly unproductive, with less drive and determination (which means no pounds are leaving my hips and the wedding is only 30 days away! whimper!). The house is messier than average (which is saying something). The meals have been more junk food-ish. The projects I have started have been left half done. My visiting teaching needs a kick start. I've just felt thbthbbbt.

I know that the underlying problem is lack of seeking. You know the kind I mean. The real personal, soul-searching seeking that brings the Spirit into our lives.

In the rush of life, there have been more than the average days missed of scripture reading lately. When I do read, I tend to rush through and say to myself, "There, done with that!"

All this has added up to less joy and peace in my life and who needs that?!

This morning, I determined that it's time to quit going down that dead end road. As I said, my list right now is beyond me, but I put all of that aside. I spent a bit more time on my knees and when I got up, I grabbed, not just my scriptures, but my marking pencils as well. I read, pondered, flipped to cross references, marked and wondered in prayer as I went.

Wow! It's small and will need continued watering, but what a sweet little seed sprouted in my heart this morning!

I love the gospel!! It's such a happy thing in my life!

(and my ten minutes are up!)

6 comments:

  1. That's a beautiful and honest post.
    Thank you.

    I feel the same......however my wedding is 2 months away....thank goodness.

    I need to immerse myself in the scriptures better.

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  2. I've been in a slump lately too. Thanks for helping me to realize what my problem has been!

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  3. i know exactly what you're talking about here. isn't it wonderful to know the answer isn't something crazy and complicated? we just need to readjust every once in a while, i guess... the spirit is always the best motivation.

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  4. I love you and your thoughts!! Thanks for sharing and helping me to try to be better!!

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  5. I can relate! I think we all get into the funk from time to time. I sometimes attribute it to aging, sometimes to tiredness, but I think that much of the time it is the "lack of seeking" (love that). Thanks for sharing it gives me something to think about.

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  6. Sometimes I don't get blogs read as fast as I would like. Seeking, is such a great explanation for what I sometimes lack. I think I'm doing all the right stuff, and on the surface, I am; but I know when the motivation is seeking (or thirsting) for the most important things that our Heavenly Father always has available to us. Love that you know how to seek, and love you!

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